My name is Anna (wish it was Annabelle) I live in New York and I love the theater. I love all of my friends and I love to laugh. The glass is most definitely half full!
Today I woke up and am now going to sleep feeling like I have no friends. No idea why and I am not one of these annoying people who complains about having no friends all of the time and i promise this will be the only time i ever say it. For some reason today i felt very alone, thats all.
I wish I could know where I will be at this time next year. Maybe I will be dating some crazy drug addict and doing a lot of drugs and ruining my life and throwing away school and wishing senior year would never come. Maybe I will be back with my old boyfriend with everything back the same way it was with the unhappiness and the waiting. Maybe I will be living in Amsterdam with my father and with all new friends and people. Maybe I will be friends with the weird kids in my grade, rejected by all of my current friends and boyfriend because of something I will do. Maybe I will be a happy student going into my senior year with a car, money, a good job, good grades, my same amazing friends and my same amazing boyfriend. I hope I am. This year I am going to make sure that none of that other stuff happens and that I control my junior year because it may be the hardest year and a lot of things may change but I hope it is one of the best years of my life. We will see =)
I need to get rid of my “Don’t Care” outlook on life. I mean I care of course about a lot of things but recently I have started to be very critical and brutal towards my friends, in a total joking way of course, but I need to stop. Because while my love life is going uphill and hopefully this year my grades will be going uphill, my mannerisms should too. So I am dreadfully sorry to anyone I have ever hurt. I’m trying to better myself. =)
